Here is Goes...

So here it goes! I have been called as the Laurel/Miamaid Advisor and assistant camp director for the Young Women in my ward.

I am so nervous! I have never had a big calling! When I say big, I mean one with so much responsibility and guidance is required. I feel so nervous being in charge of young girls just 5 or so years younger then me. I feel such a huge responsibility to them to do a great job and be the leader they need.
I have never taught a lesson, and I will be teaching on a regular basis! I barely know the gospel myself let alone being able to teach someone else.

I am learning a great lesson here at this point in my life. I have to just trust in the Lord. I truly believe that this is something the Lord is trying to teach me. To trust in Him and trust that His plan for me is what is best for me.

Life has been so hard for me because I don't feel it is going the direction I want it too. I want to be in nursing school and I haven't been able to get in, I want to lose weight but all my efforts have not brought much of a result, and so on. I have never been someone that stays down when I don't do well in things but the last month or so has kept me wondering what my future holds and why my efforts are not being rewarded. I find myself always wondering what I have done wrong, or what should I have done differently or better!

So I am just going to learn this lesson in life and trust in the Lord. I know that He knows who I am and He loves me. He gave me this calling for a reason and I am absolutely going to do my best to fulfill this calling in the manner that He wants me to. Hopefully it will benefit those I am around more then it is going to benefit me. I am also going to trust that the Lord knows what He is doing and even though I want to be in nursing school, he has me on the best path for me and my future.

So here it goes... I'll let you know how it all turns out.