35 weeks!

I can't believe I am already 35 weeks. My doctor says it has gone by so fast because it's my first and I'm not trying to be pregnant and chase another child around. haha I guess something to look forward to later in life.

This last trimester has been going slow but fast at the same time. I have gotten so much done but still fill like I have so much to do! The baby's room is almost done, I'm just waiting for the dresser to be delievered :). I think once the dresser is here and full I will feel a lot more prepared! (or at least I hope so).

I have been really nervous about this baby. I have no idea how to be a mom and what I should do every day for my little one. I am just counting on the Lord to bless me and give me those promised blessings of being a mom. I know I won't be perfect but the calm of becoming a mother is definitely a needed blessing.

My favorite part of this trimester is not just feeling the baby move (because it can hurt when he kicks my ribs for the 80th time that day) but being able to watch him move. It is a little alien type weird being able to watch your belly move from side to side because your little one is out of room and still wants to stretch and move as much as he can. I love it though. It makes it seem so much more real and alive. I really think I am going to miss those moments of being able to feel and see him move inside me. Good thing I'll be able to hold him in my arms at those times!

At my 35 week appointment my little man was a champ! He has flipped and has his head down. He's been breach most of the pregnancy so I am glad he turned. I'm pretty sure he turned several weeks ago because the pressure changed. My doctor did an ultrasound to make sure his head was down and she really had to push down to find his head. She said, "wow, he is already really low! I doubt you make it to your due date" This is a really exciting statement but a crappy one too. If he doesn't come early or on time I'll be bummed but the chance that he can is really exciting! I don't want him coming to early, but my doc said he would be healthy and fine if he came from now on.  Huge relief to me!

Though the exhaustion, soreness, reflux, and anxiety is going full force, I am so grateful for this pregnancy. My little man is my little miracle and I can't wait to see his face and hold him in my arms. Though I am scared I am not going to be a good mom, I know I will love my little man more then anything I have ever loved. I know this because I already love him so much.