Unknown

I completley feel like I am stuck in the world of the unknown, and I am really hating it! The future holds so many undecided factors for me right now and I hate that feeling. I am stressed out over things I won't know about until April and August! Who stresses about stuff that is 5 months away?!!! I know it is absolutely ridiculous for me to stress out but I can't help it.

I wish there was a way to see the future. I really wonder if I was offered a chance to see my future if I would take it. Seeing the future takes the faith out of life but it can take away some stress but I definitely don't think all of it. I just want to know right now about what is going to be happening this fall with school, work, Taylor's business, and everything else. To bad life doesn't work that way.

I guess it is time for my stress trial in life, or one of many. I have realized that I really need to put 100% faith in the Lord and his plan for me. I know that He knows who I am and is helping me down the path I am supposed to be on but it is sure hard sometimes not knowing where you will be or what you will be doing in the near future.

I think the other thing that is so hard for me is waiting on others. I won't know about school until someone else makes the decision about my future. I won't know if I get the work schedule I need until someone else says it will work out. I want to be able to decide but it doesn't always work that way.

I guess for now I will just try not to stress over things that are out of my control and most importantly remember that my Father in Heaven loves me and is mindful of me. And that is all I can ask for.